31.01.2012: Its been time that I stopped writing diaries. But, as usual I am tired with myself. Again and again the struggle continues. A little bit happens and I get scared. Why am I scared of failing or falling when big bro rightly said that I learn by that way only. It might so happen that I may not be able to achieve the heights of Vandana or Ashish but I have my own strengths, like I persevere and I am lucky at times though it might…….
02.02.2012: Yesterday, tenant has paid token amount. I am taking the risk of giving it to a company GF,FF for 50K. Really speaking, today painter came/
12.02.2012: Well, today is Sunday. I am at home. Elder Brother has lost his job. It is indeed a big terrible loss and atleast twice I remember I could not sleep properly for two nights. Different thoughts are coming to mind as to now what another business and again the same story of not doing any thing.
13.02.2012: Well, life appears to be tough these days and I do not know what to do. Bro lost his job. I am under pressure or unnecessary feeling pressure. My reporting appears to be about to be changed. There is a worry for that. Than My wifes job is in danger another worry. My daughters growth appears to be slower than AAvyaan Ashishs son. Really speaking. Today, I was having a word with him and it appears as if he is trying to gauge my strengths and weaknesses. Now, he knows for sure that I have a little clue about service tax. Slowly and steadily he will come back I know. I will have to concentrate more on my work. It appears on one side that 2 months I should look for another one. Because things move fast at such times.
